I have been in Denver so long now, I really wish to wander away again. I find that I am anxious for the next adventure. The catch is that I made a commitment to perform some work for my mother’s company, which in turn helps me pay for the wandering.
No matter how much I wish I could survive without money and just serve others for free, our society does not allow that. I suppose I could walk the country, but I’m maybe not that free-spirited yet. This leads me to accomplishing work for my mother’s company. Data input, fairly simple, but tedious. So though I had intended to leave today there was more work to accomplish.
This brings up two issues. First I am upset that I didn’t get to stick to my schedule. I had finally figured out this schedule, and my old-self, that control freak is really distressed that I am still here. There is a small part of me which feels that I should throw the whole trip right out the window. Second, I really dislike tedious data input work. So today was just really tough. I am selfish in the fact that I don’t like doing work which is not entertaining for me. The matter is that someone needs to do the work and I need to do something to replenish my traveling money.
The job I was in prior to traveling was a job that I really did not like, but it was so multi-faceted that I was constantly hopping tasks. I did not leave that job merely because I disliked it, but I definitely am much happier not being there. For everything in life there is a cost, and the attitude I choose is how I determine the positive or negative value of the cost. Today was extremely valuable, though tedious. I have not yet finished the data inputting, but will finish it from the road this week. I appreciate that I have the opportunity to move on in the morning to the next adventure, and that I have more work to do which will provide me funds.
The issues I described above seem so menial, but they felt slightly devastating. Stuck in a place I want to leave, and stuck doing work that I didn’t enjoy was rather claustrophobic. When they are put down on paper (or computer screen) it seems ridiculous that I even recount the issues. This though is a tool to realizing what menial concerns those are. I feel better now having seen it written out. I am also able to be grateful for what I received and what I was able to do for others.
Time to get some sleep before I hit the road!
Signing off Denver, CO