I think thus far I have heard the word ENVY as often as I have heard the word WORRY when it comes to what I am doing. Ironically often those words are from the same people. I just remind them that the grass is always greener on the other side. If they truly wanted to do what I am doing, then they can wander without traveling. They can wander in the depths of their souls and search out how to be happy.
The first tool to being happy is to accept your circumstances. I honestly would not be on this physical journey if I could not accept some circumstances and change others. I had a room mate bail, which left me with an issue about keeping an apartment. At the point that I would have fallen apart from that, instead I just redirected my plans to include no apartment. I had a job that I just struggled at because I preferred to be elsewhere and so I changed my circumstances. Each person can do that without being so drastic as to up and travel with all their necessary possessions in their car.
I however am walking in Blue Grass… not green. So the grass is always greener on the other side, but I prefer my blue grass. Though anyone can do what I am doing, I am working on doing it in a way that others aren’t used to. It is not to be understood, envied, or worried about. As I said earlier this week, everything happens for a reason. I look at my life right now, how I feel, what the world looks and sounds like after the last week and I find that I am at peace in a way which I have never found.
My heart has stilled, as has my mind, I am not rushing off to accomplish things that seem overwhelming. I had to remove almost everything in order to still my life. I don’t want green grass, I learned that many months ago. Green grass does not work for me. However I would love for everyone to join me in the blue grass, in whatever way that looks like for them. There is no reason we should not all find peace in our lives. This is not a race. It is a journey.
Tonight is my last night in the Cedar Rapids area for a while. I look forward to beginning my real travels tomorrow and have loved have this short period of time to warm to the idea. It is exciting to know that tomorrow… tomorrow I won’t be signing off from Marion, IA. Till then!
Signing off from Marion, IA.